I haven't been having the best of times lately, and am feeling quite down, despite all which is new around me.
I don't feel well in my head, and that makes me sad.
My physical/mental health is dwindling, which has had an awful effect on my quality of life. I'm making the best of it, but my depression isn't helping much with feeling any better.
I feel that I don't have much time left in this life.
I ..., I just don't know how to keep up the facade.

I'm not well, and things aren't looking good for me, I may not be around much longer.
I'm very scared and frustrated at the same time, I had so much I wanted to accomplish, but it seems all to much in vain.

Sorry... I just don't feel well, in so many ways.

maybe some music will help.
I don't understand the sanskrit chanting in this video but listening to it makes me feel peaceful.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5Ho-x0ujJs&list=LLu2bDiwA-_WceLOYTjvgpaw

I am also sorry to hear you are feeling so down Wallace. You have shared quite a bit here and helped many people so keep that in mind.
When i feel down i spend time outside with nature. That always makes me feel better. I hope and pray all is well with you soon.

You've been a great addition to this forum Wallace and it is so hard seeing you like this. I know too well what depression feels like but you sound worse than I have ever been. Have you talked this through with a doctor? Please don't bear this burden alone. AnMal and I will be praying for you.

Wallace,
You have a lot of friends, here.
Those who can will pray for you getting soon better.
All of us are thinking about you having in their heart the best wishes for a speedy recovery.

Wallace, we need you, your friends and relatives need you. Depression can be a terrible thing, whether it is a loss of a friend or a loved one. There is great help out there for this and we all beg you to seek out that help.
There are treatments and clinics that can help so please do this for us and yourself.
Molly

Very hard to imagine you in a depressed state Wallace. Even my son sees you as a funny guy. Take the help that is available. Nobody frowns on it these days. Enjoy the Arizona sunshine, it's great medicine.

Thank you all very much for your kind words and encouragement.
I'm not going anywhere, I'll always love Gimping and the people here at GC.

I sometimes feel the same way Wallace. Every night I go to bed, I wonder if this is the night I won't wake up. I too, have been battling depression. I'm 50 years old, don't have a job, and feel physically sick most of the time. I have a cough I can't get rid of, but can't afford to go to the doctors. I'm an ex weight lifter, and have pains in my body all the time because of it. I walk with a limp, because either my bad foot, ankle, or knee is always hurting. I lost my job of 14 years, and my wife lost her job of 21 years. She was able to find employment again, but for way less than she was making. I don't have any income at all. Unemployment ran out some time ago. I feel worthless most times. I have my occasional moments when I have a good day, but it seems to be getting rarer all the time. It's the domino effect with me. When I get depressed, I think about all things bad, that makes it worse. My dad died when I was 23, he was 48. My brother took his own life at 45, after suffering 3 strokes and a heart attack. I do feel that when I find a job, the burden will be lifted somewhat, but what a road it's been trying to get there. Also, I have had anxiety issues my entire life. I didn't even used to be able to go into a restaurant. I can now, but still don't like to.

Thanks Warrior, you are truly a Warrior.
It's also helpful to know that I'm not alone.
Tomorrow is a new day and things will be better, hopefully. I'm going to get some help for how I'm feeling, whatever that may be.
Thanks again Warrior.

Very sorry to hear that Warrior. Just do what Wallace is going to do, seek help where ever you can get it. Maybe a new location might have a better job market. Anyway, take care.

Hang in there Wallace and Warrior, we need you here.

Sorry to hear that Wallace. Best thing to do first is spiel which can take some of that burden off of you and you did that. Hope you do have family/relatives that are close (both in location and by bond) so that you can get the comfort you need too.

Thank you Lyle...

Thanks everyone, appreciated. I would love to move, and have been wanting to, but for one, can't afford it right now, but also my wife's father moved here from Florida, because of his age, and his wife has Alzheimers. My wife won't move until they've passed.

Dear friends, Wallace and Warrior, I’m so sorry to know you are having a bad time. Please, keep your mind occupied on something you actually like. You, my friends, need some of help to cope with depression, never on your own. In my experience, life is like that with very hard times sometimes, but we must have it as something necessary in our own life to grow up and become stronger at last. Family and real friends help, so let they help you.
You have here so many friends in Gimp Chat.
Wallace, don’t let some physical be stronger than you. You are what your wonderful heart is.
Warrior, you have been a great fighter (only that currently you are in a bad stage in your life) but it ‘ll pass and everything will be much better.
I’m sorry my English isn’t so good as I’d like. You have all my affection.
Please, let us know how you fell yourself. We are like a great family, you know.

Thanks so much Issabella.
I have plans to get myself some "professional" help with my depression.

Just remember my friends, there is light at the end of every tunnel. Some tunnels are long and winding. The key is to keep moving or you'll never discover what is just around the next bend.

It has been said that "Action is the antidote to despair". Stones carried on our backs can weight us down. When laid end to end, they can provide a path to the next place in our journey. Make a path.

Have you smiled today?

"Is a hippopotamus a hippopotamus, or just a really cool opotamus?"

"I've learned so much from my mistakes, I think I'll make a few more."

"A balanced diet means a cupcake in each hand."

Thanks Tux you're so right, and thanks for making me laugh.